wondering

I had lots of thoughts in my mind as I wrote this post.

Like, what would I become when I grow up?
Where will I continue my study?
Can I be independent, living abroad, someday?

There are things you should consider as you enter high school. Like, what major you should take when you're graduated later. or even further, what job should you choose. And yes, I've thought all of that.

One day, my mum asked me to online-meeting with a counselor to know what's my "hidden" talents so I could choose what major later in college. And it turned out to be 3 jobs that related with my talent: entrepreneur, psychologist, and doctor. Like........ Doctor?! I'm not even THAT good at biology. But again, Allah has showed me His unexpected plan. I got pretty good grades at chemistry and biology though i'm sort of disgusted with bloods and organs and etc. or maybe i could choose like apothecary or pediatrician or dermatologist. Well, let Him guide wherever He wants me to go then. :)

And about studying and living abroad, my parents and I have talked this kind of conversation several times, and all we talked is about 2W+2H: where would I go; what major I'd take; how to pay the fees and living costs; and how can I survive when I don't even want to clean my room. But then, my parents ended up with, "well we have to give it all to Allah and never give up reaching dreams. If it meant to be, it will happen."

All i could do that time was just talking to myself, "it's right."