Bad Day (Ever) :(

*background music: Agar Kau Mengerti by Abdul and The Coffee Theory*

Today's probably the worst day on this week. I suddenly became moody, simply because....

My heart is broken.

Do you ever feel that you have a crush on someone special for no reason and then suddenly you know that he has a crush on someone else and they're recently flirting with each other as you speak to him?

It definitely breaks my heart a little. No, into so many pieces.

And then you feel happy again for having the ones you love the most around you and dream about something else funny and it makes you happy and then you have a crush on someone else. But you don't know who's that someone else. And so on, and so on, and so on.

Goodness, why is this so complicated. I'm emotionally unstable.

Maybe it's because I don't know who to love. I don't know whether if I like him or someone else. I'm still in-between.

I actually never tell people about my feeling to this guy, unless they know it from their instincts. Like my best friend who understands me well, she already guessed it (I guess. If not, she won't tease me hard for liking this boy). Because to be honest...... This boy used to like me a lot. He's one of my ex.

And today, I heard my friends talked about this guy and the girl he has a crush on. And they were teasing me like, "Yo Audrey I bet you must have been jealous to his new girl" and I said "no, I don't" while actually my heart said "DAMN YOU."

But the funny thing is you always know who to come when you're in such condition. Like when you're happy, you're sad, you're confused, you always come to this guy who has been your friend.

And I didn't cry a lot this time.

Maybe he doesn't mean that much to me? I don't know.

But I'm not going back to him, not after I hurt him couple times back then.

Screw love, I'll go to bed.