I'm sorry.....

do you ever feel like a plastic bag~ no I'm not going to sing that.

but seriously, do you ever feel like you're invisible, or feel like people use you for their own matters and after that just leave you because you're nothing more than a piece of shit?

well, I do sometimes. In fact, it is happening now.

At first I felt that practically everyone was keeping their distance. They shared secrets, talked about the rumors, and i had a hunch that they were actually talking about me. i know that even if it wasn't about me, it was still none of my business. I was curious, so curious that sometimes my curiosity annoyed them. And still, i felt like i was being left out by the others.

What did I do? what was the thing that irritated them?

No matter what their problems are, I'm going to say sorry.

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I annoyed you people. I'm sorry I did things that hurt you. I'm sorry I said some stupid things that made you want to punch me in the face, with a chair. I'm sorry if I wasn't up-to-date like you all. I'm sorry if I didn't do cool things like you, didn't read the books that you read, or watched Sam and Cat every afternoon instead of the cool movies you watched. I'm sorry if i was out of control about everything. I'm sorry if I was a dork. I'm sorry if I acted childish. I'm sorry I couldn't be the best.

I'm sorry if I too cared about what you said about me.
I'm sorry if I chose to be myself instead of the fake person like everyone did.

I'm sorry I can't be perfect.
But oh, I'm not going to sorry about that one.