I'm sorry.....

do you ever feel like a plastic bag~ no I'm not going to sing that.

but seriously, do you ever feel like you're invisible, or feel like people use you for their own matters and after that just leave you because you're nothing more than a piece of shit?

well, I do sometimes. In fact, it is happening now.

At first I felt that practically everyone was keeping their distance. They shared secrets, talked about the rumors, and i had a hunch that they were actually talking about me. i know that even if it wasn't about me, it was still none of my business. I was curious, so curious that sometimes my curiosity annoyed them. And still, i felt like i was being left out by the others.

What did I do? what was the thing that irritated them?

No matter what their problems are, I'm going to say sorry.

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry I annoyed you people. I'm sorry I did things that hurt you. I'm sorry I said some stupid things that made you want to punch me in the face, with a chair. I'm sorry if I wasn't up-to-date like you all. I'm sorry if I didn't do cool things like you, didn't read the books that you read, or watched Sam and Cat every afternoon instead of the cool movies you watched. I'm sorry if i was out of control about everything. I'm sorry if I was a dork. I'm sorry if I acted childish. I'm sorry I couldn't be the best.

I'm sorry if I too cared about what you said about me.
I'm sorry if I chose to be myself instead of the fake person like everyone did.

I'm sorry I can't be perfect.
But oh, I'm not going to sorry about that one.

My Fav!! (For Now)

it's been awhile since i updated my favorite stuffs, especially songs. so as you know from the title above i've changed my must-listen songs (because i'm moody, yeah) and these are my fav songs for now:

(note that there are some indonesian songs)

1. Bastille - Pompeii

2. Pharell Williams - Happy

3. John Legend - All Of Me

4. Tulus - Sepatu

5. Raisa - Pemeran Utama

6. Tulus - Jangan Cintai Aku Apa Adanya

7. Tulus - Gajah

8. Christina Aguilera - Reflection

9. Katy Perry feat. Juicy J - Dark Horse

10. Sara Bareilles - King Of Anything

(although there are some old songs but they're all good.

And sorry if my taste in music is lamer than you think because it is what it is. :p)

oh and also i love to do these things in my leisure time:
1. checking Youtube and see if Bethany Mota uploads a new video. omg i always love her style and the way she talks and showing thingsssss that's why i suddenly wanna live in US and get all the stuffs like she did and i've always wanted to get one of her collection. the more the better, actually.
2. twittering. gosh it's like my all-time fav.
3. take a nap. still.
4. watching TV. I usually watch k-drama but since i found an extremely cute guy in a J-drama so now i start to watch it <3
5. EAT.

these are my favorite things, what's yours? :)

#newsflash

i've heard so many bad news this month and i feel sorry for those who had lost their loved ones. :(

just this afternoon, i heard one of my classmate's father passed away. several weeks before, my friend's father also passed away. And my another friend's father died also. 3 fathers are already gone, may they rest in peace. :)

moral message: having a complete family is a blessing, so don't take it for granted, and respect your family before they're gone. one mistake and you'll regret everything :)